This is my first love story. Although we may never been together before. But In my life, I called him as my first love and my love for still last maybe it could last forever. And this is where we first time met. I admit it I wish I could playback all these moments again. I could only hold myself to it. But I have to said He's the most beautiful thing that God ever gave to me. I'm blessed cause I met him. My life wouldn't be more beautiful if it isn't because of him who colored my life before.
The Prologue
2 August 2005
It happen at my elementary school days. I was in the third year. I was just an ordinary kid. I wasn't feel really special at that time. I was lonely, shy, try to stick with a friend who's actually that just using me because no one wanted to be with me truly as a friend. I feel so empty and sad but I don't really care and feel it cause I used to feel that. So I always thought my days are quite normal even though I realized my childhood times are not happy as other child might had. I was struggling and that's why I became so mature. People never know the real me, but I still be happy about it cause I didn't want them to know. You know why? I realized that things can't last forever, someday maybe you and your BFF has to make a separate ways in order to keep moving through your life. I don't want to give them any bad memories so I don't want people to get upset about it. Truly I was feeling very lonely, scared, and coward.
In the first week of August I try to skipped my extracurricular. I didn't knoe where my class is and after a long search, I couldn't find any it. So I decided to skip it. Stupid right? I was in the waiting room where parents or drivers or the baby sitter could pick up the kids. From there I saw Mrs. Chandra on the table (guru piket) the one who always keep looking after us to be picked up and she does other stuffs to except teaching. Then there's a teacher came to her and asked her "have you seen Fita? This girl should attend the extracurricular today but she didn't come". I was watching from the waiting room and I was like "aaaarrrgghhh damn it I'm gonna get caught" so I try to hide behind the fence and the chairs. But mrs. Chandra told her, "oh I saw her right there in the waiting room." Then she came into this room and she called my name. But I was too afraid to answer and also ran. She found me and she asks me "why didn't you attend? Are you forgot or something?". I was too afraid, I was quite and she keeps asking me so I've tried to lie but it didn't work. Then I tell the truth, "I didn't knew where the class is" "so... Why didn't you asked? It's a nonsense reason" then she mad at me and talked to me and tried pull my hand and force me to come,So I just quite and she took my hands and I took my bags then she took me to the Class (actually I already know where the class is, I just didn't want to come cause it's already so late, you know how a scared kid and coward kid acts like) Then I went it and I pretend that's everything is okay to my extracurricular teacher. All the kids were looking at me and I feel so ashamed about it. I sit alone there and began to drewing. Oh did I mention what was the extracurricular that I took? I took arts because at that time I like to drawing. But what I meant is that I was making a shame and embarassing myself and people know that I'm kinda a loser type kid right?
9 August 2005 (a week after That Skipped extracurricular catastrophe)
Did I mention before how my physical body looks like? Well I Forgot(sorry), I describe it for you : skinny, long thick-frizzy-a little curly I usually make it into ponytail because in school you have to tied up your hair if your hair is longer than the shoulder so it looks neat, not to forget my front teeth that looks like bugs bunny but the different thing is that my front teeth had a spaces(gigi tonggos dan berjarak pula) so it makes me look more dorkier and my self-esteem is so low.
I was almost finished my drawing and I took a walk for a while and asked the teacher is my drawing good or not. Then I notice this boy. He was talking to his friend. He is taller than me, wears a glasses, he's eyes were actually small but because he wears glasses his eyes was quite big. But not big as mine. Oh yeah!!! My big eyes. I always though my eyes were scary because it's so big (my friends thought) but many people say it's beautiful (errr...?) Back to the story... He's kinda attract my eyes to see him. Something interesting me, something push me to know more about that boy, somehow I know him as a sweet boy, something makes me can't take my eyes off from him, I thought myself "why this boy so interesting and so handsome (I thought), I wish I could get know him. But talk about my physical looks and last week catastrophe which I embarrassed myself there. I decided not to talk to him.
But hey, the best thing happen when we not expected to be. He saw me that I was staring at him and I turn and pretend I saw something else. At the moment I'm just waiting and wished I could talk to him even though I knew that I couldn't. When I was about going back to my table and about to past him, I was kinda little heard his conversation with his friend. Something about Japanese Cartoon. He suddenly approaching me and smiled at me after he was talking to his friend. You know what... When people met first time they usually asked name and etc. Well it didn't happen to me. This the conversation we had. Oh btw! Let's called him DS do you know why? I'll answer that later.
DS : hi! Do you like Naruto too?
Me : err... Yes?!? (I automatically said yes!!! Maybe because he's so charming...)
DS : oh wow... Which character do you like Naruto or Sasuke?
Me : well Naruto more (I was thinking Naruto is a person with a green clothes or something
That is green and sasuke is a person with blue clothes or someone that relevant to blue.
Thank God I knew that is was a cartoon TV show and I know a very-very little bit of it)
DS : oh ok. (Then he starts babbling about Naruto Blah...Blah...Blah...)
Me : oh yes... Yes... Oh ya? Oh... Why did he? Oh I see (just pretending I know and interested with it and asks very few questions)
he keeps talking while my teacher was calling him and I follow him and listened. We were quite for a while. Then we talk again.
DS : you're a 3th grader right?
Me : yes. Are you a 4th grader?
Meanwhile there's a girl of his friend was watching us talking. At first I didn't notice but then I noticed. Then the teacher called me. He still keep listening to me and I forgot what we talk about, he follows me and then he listen again to me (sambil dia berdiri dengan 2 tangan diatas meja terus dia berayun2 gk jelas). Oh he also asked if I like Doraemon too (maybe) Then the teacher called me again and I was about to go. He suddenly stopped me.
DS : Wait! (He hands are so closed to mine and I think he touch) what's your name?
Me : oh my name is Fita
DS : oh ok. (He turned around)
Me : Wait! (Without my consciousness I automatically hold his hand)
DS & Me : (he turned around and he saw his hand and mine are holding) whoaaaahh!!!
(We both pull our hand. His friend was smiling at us)
Me : what's you name?
DS : my name is (Censored)
Me : Oh oke.
Unfortunately we didn't talk again after that moment. When I past him, he only waved his hand little. Since then we never talked again for a year. He and I already forget each other. But I still remembered this moment somehow it pops up again. I don't know if he remembers it. But it's too bad it happen a long time ago and I wished I could feel it again
To be continued...
The Prologue
2 August 2005
It happen at my elementary school days. I was in the third year. I was just an ordinary kid. I wasn't feel really special at that time. I was lonely, shy, try to stick with a friend who's actually that just using me because no one wanted to be with me truly as a friend. I feel so empty and sad but I don't really care and feel it cause I used to feel that. So I always thought my days are quite normal even though I realized my childhood times are not happy as other child might had. I was struggling and that's why I became so mature. People never know the real me, but I still be happy about it cause I didn't want them to know. You know why? I realized that things can't last forever, someday maybe you and your BFF has to make a separate ways in order to keep moving through your life. I don't want to give them any bad memories so I don't want people to get upset about it. Truly I was feeling very lonely, scared, and coward.
In the first week of August I try to skipped my extracurricular. I didn't knoe where my class is and after a long search, I couldn't find any it. So I decided to skip it. Stupid right? I was in the waiting room where parents or drivers or the baby sitter could pick up the kids. From there I saw Mrs. Chandra on the table (guru piket) the one who always keep looking after us to be picked up and she does other stuffs to except teaching. Then there's a teacher came to her and asked her "have you seen Fita? This girl should attend the extracurricular today but she didn't come". I was watching from the waiting room and I was like "aaaarrrgghhh damn it I'm gonna get caught" so I try to hide behind the fence and the chairs. But mrs. Chandra told her, "oh I saw her right there in the waiting room." Then she came into this room and she called my name. But I was too afraid to answer and also ran. She found me and she asks me "why didn't you attend? Are you forgot or something?". I was too afraid, I was quite and she keeps asking me so I've tried to lie but it didn't work. Then I tell the truth, "I didn't knew where the class is" "so... Why didn't you asked? It's a nonsense reason" then she mad at me and talked to me and tried pull my hand and force me to come,So I just quite and she took my hands and I took my bags then she took me to the Class (actually I already know where the class is, I just didn't want to come cause it's already so late, you know how a scared kid and coward kid acts like) Then I went it and I pretend that's everything is okay to my extracurricular teacher. All the kids were looking at me and I feel so ashamed about it. I sit alone there and began to drewing. Oh did I mention what was the extracurricular that I took? I took arts because at that time I like to drawing. But what I meant is that I was making a shame and embarassing myself and people know that I'm kinda a loser type kid right?
9 August 2005 (a week after That Skipped extracurricular catastrophe)
Did I mention before how my physical body looks like? Well I Forgot(sorry), I describe it for you : skinny, long thick-frizzy-a little curly I usually make it into ponytail because in school you have to tied up your hair if your hair is longer than the shoulder so it looks neat, not to forget my front teeth that looks like bugs bunny but the different thing is that my front teeth had a spaces(gigi tonggos dan berjarak pula) so it makes me look more dorkier and my self-esteem is so low.
I was almost finished my drawing and I took a walk for a while and asked the teacher is my drawing good or not. Then I notice this boy. He was talking to his friend. He is taller than me, wears a glasses, he's eyes were actually small but because he wears glasses his eyes was quite big. But not big as mine. Oh yeah!!! My big eyes. I always though my eyes were scary because it's so big (my friends thought) but many people say it's beautiful (errr...?) Back to the story... He's kinda attract my eyes to see him. Something interesting me, something push me to know more about that boy, somehow I know him as a sweet boy, something makes me can't take my eyes off from him, I thought myself "why this boy so interesting and so handsome (I thought), I wish I could get know him. But talk about my physical looks and last week catastrophe which I embarrassed myself there. I decided not to talk to him.
But hey, the best thing happen when we not expected to be. He saw me that I was staring at him and I turn and pretend I saw something else. At the moment I'm just waiting and wished I could talk to him even though I knew that I couldn't. When I was about going back to my table and about to past him, I was kinda little heard his conversation with his friend. Something about Japanese Cartoon. He suddenly approaching me and smiled at me after he was talking to his friend. You know what... When people met first time they usually asked name and etc. Well it didn't happen to me. This the conversation we had. Oh btw! Let's called him DS do you know why? I'll answer that later.
DS : hi! Do you like Naruto too?
Me : err... Yes?!? (I automatically said yes!!! Maybe because he's so charming...)
DS : oh wow... Which character do you like Naruto or Sasuke?
Me : well Naruto more (I was thinking Naruto is a person with a green clothes or something
That is green and sasuke is a person with blue clothes or someone that relevant to blue.
Thank God I knew that is was a cartoon TV show and I know a very-very little bit of it)
DS : oh ok. (Then he starts babbling about Naruto Blah...Blah...Blah...)
Me : oh yes... Yes... Oh ya? Oh... Why did he? Oh I see (just pretending I know and interested with it and asks very few questions)
he keeps talking while my teacher was calling him and I follow him and listened. We were quite for a while. Then we talk again.
DS : you're a 3th grader right?
Me : yes. Are you a 4th grader?
Meanwhile there's a girl of his friend was watching us talking. At first I didn't notice but then I noticed. Then the teacher called me. He still keep listening to me and I forgot what we talk about, he follows me and then he listen again to me (sambil dia berdiri dengan 2 tangan diatas meja terus dia berayun2 gk jelas). Oh he also asked if I like Doraemon too (maybe) Then the teacher called me again and I was about to go. He suddenly stopped me.
DS : Wait! (He hands are so closed to mine and I think he touch) what's your name?
Me : oh my name is Fita
DS : oh ok. (He turned around)
Me : Wait! (Without my consciousness I automatically hold his hand)
DS & Me : (he turned around and he saw his hand and mine are holding) whoaaaahh!!!
(We both pull our hand. His friend was smiling at us)
Me : what's you name?
DS : my name is (Censored)
Me : Oh oke.
Unfortunately we didn't talk again after that moment. When I past him, he only waved his hand little. Since then we never talked again for a year. He and I already forget each other. But I still remembered this moment somehow it pops up again. I don't know if he remembers it. But it's too bad it happen a long time ago and I wished I could feel it again
To be continued...
